360 Degrees: STRESS

I'm stressing a lot right now. As usual, I have waited until the very last moment to get all of my work done. Once again, I'm sitting at my computer breathing heavily and worrying about whether or not I'll have enough time to do this and how late I'm gonna have to stay up to do that. Stress is a sadistic torturer. It gives me that feeling at the pit of my stomach like I'm going to throw up all the suppressed thoughts of regret and disappointment I have for procrastinating yet again. As I rush through my homework, I get bouts of small panic attacks and try to calm myself down, while I know my mom is downstairs thoroughly disappointed that I have wasted this weekend just like all the others. And then I chew nervously on the end of my ponytail and wonder what possesses me to do these things over and over and over...

BUT

Stress also gives me the drive to do things ASAP and as well as I can. It may be a little rushed, but I'm only focusing on one thing and one thing only: my homework. I block away any unwanted distractions (well, as much as I can for, after all, I'm an extremely ADD-like human being) and I don't stop until I literally drop. Also, I must admit I quite enjoy the suspense and craziness of waiting until the last minute (oh shut up you know you do too!) I thrive on the feeling I get when everything is finally done and I can go to sleeeeeeep.

Of course, If you're looking through the eyes of a parent, you're not exactly happy-go-lucky. I'd probably be worried that my kid wasn't putting enough effort into school and that he/she needs some help organizing his/her priorities. Then there's also the view of a disgruntled group member or a friend who tires of hearing you freak out time after time about how much you have left to do. So how do these perspectives relate? They're all the catastrophic repercussions that happen because of a little procrastination, and they all can be avoided. But should they be? Maybe, just maybe, there's a point in between being so stressed you're sweating buckets and starting homework obscenely early. In this, we would get a completely concentrated person who still has time to do other things when they're finished with the unholy thing that is homework. I'd like to thing there is that compromise, so for once my Sunday can be nice and relaxing. But it probably won't happen. Nope.